Spin This Cabbage Vol I.

So, with this said, I have no idea why I still deal with women. Last night I was hanging out with a sort-of friend last night, having a good time, though she got a phone call and needed to take it. This wouldn't have bothered me so much, if she wouldn't have been 45 minutes on the fucking thing. She did take a brake from the phone call to use the bathroom than told me she had to get back to her phone call... which she took elsewhere. So there I was at the bar by myself. I just up and left. She did call my name from across the street, but I just kept on walking... fuck her! I'm not a bad guy by anymeans, but apparently I'm not any good for anyone to give a damn about. I'll just leave it that. Today I work at the GAP from 1 to 6 and at Starbucks at 7 to 1... it'll keep me pleasently busy.

Oh... I just don't know what to do with myself lately. I've had SO much coffee, and I know that's it's effecting my attitude some. Also, I had way too much free time on my hands. I did however get to catch up on some E-mailing and finished a project I started over a year ago Neurotically Yours. These were a series of short (very short) stories that had to do with the inane shit I had been going through, mostly my brake-up with Julie Micheals. We were still "friends" when I started it. Then all sorts of fucked up shit, mostly from my end, forced me to shelve it... though the subject matter was light-hearted, it was still too personal to deal with. So, still keeping a few of the silly poems, along with the silly pitcures I drew... I busted out with twenty others today... along with the silly lil' pitcures. So now all I have to do is go to Art Media and pick up supplies and then spend a day at Kinko's making tons of those little fucking comic book thingies, which I'll try to consign at Reading Frenzy. Chole for the most part is pretty easy going about stuff, so I hope I'll be able to get them consigned there... she's always in demand. I also picked up the new OutKast double C.D., Speakerboxxx/The Love Below. I've mentioned this on several occasions, but this album(s) is the best thing to be released this year... no joke! Tonight, a friend of mine is having a party, and I'm going to try to make it, seeing as I don't go to parties very often... I let you know how it turns out - later.

Anyhow, another one of my post didn't get printed. I had mentioned my working all weekend, hanging out with a millionaire, seeing Lost In Translation and comparing it to any Wes Anderson film. Also, I did buy quite a few CD's.
Eyrkah Badu - Wordwide Underground (Good not great)
Hot Hot Heat - Make Up The Brakedown (Awesome!)
Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - Take Them On Your Own (not as good as the first)
Steve Burns - Songs For Dustmites (Formal Blue's Clue's sidekick "Steve", comes out with one of best new releases of the Fall... go figure)
Elvis Costello and The Attractions - Trust [Rhino Reissue] (Fifth album which to me is just "okay")
Elvis Costello and The Atttractions - Punch The Clock [Rhino Reissue] (Seventh album, which sounds the most "pop" of all of his albums, and one of his better ones)
I may not be around too much, due to internet issues, but I'll try as it is nice to have an outlet...PEACE!!!

Oh, I just do some stupid shit to get myself in trouble. I showed up late to work and got written up. The other day, I left my wallet and bus pass home and got caught on the MAX and got a 75 dollar fine. Two things I never do, and I got busted within two days for doing them (showing up late and bumming a free ride) So I have all sorts of paper work to add to more paperwork. I hung out with Candice, and that went well, sort of.

So I worked everywhere again today, and now my day is done... the end. I am actually in a good and relaxed mood right now. I may see a movie today... I finally got around to seeing American Splendor, pretty good movie. I'm waiting to see that new Audrey Tautou movie tomorrow with Candice. I wouldn't call it a date, so I'll just say "hang out" for now. Tonight I may go to this church in Gresham. The minister was a sex addict until he found god. He seems like a really nice guy, and his congeration is huge. I go for a few reasons. For one, maybe I'll get something out of it. The other is to wait and watch what will happen next. I honestly hope he makes it... than there is that part of me that likes to watch "train wrecks". I wonder what they would say if I brought some popcorn in to church? Well, not much going on, good or bad. I'll mention more when I have more to say.

Things are better, for the most part, but now I have a sense of being on the defensive... kind of like one of those "Eye Of The Tiger" Things. I won't let it get to me however. Also, I have stopped posting on a few of the online fourms. I really need to not be online so much. I'll keep up on my blog, mostly so I have an outlet for my thoughts... shit like that. Well, off to the movies. I've been trying to see American Splendor for the past week and a half. I'll let you all know how it is. Oh, and checking out Ryan's blog, he had on a link to Toothpaste For Dinner, which is one of my favorite websites, so I added it to my link part of the blog thingie... okay, I OUT!!!

I don't want to get into it too much right now, but I really do need to find a new field of work. I've been working retail for too long now. On more of a positive note, the Puffy site (J-Pop duo, not P-Diddy) got updated. It's better than the previous site, but I like the one before that. I will point out that things aren't going according to plan... and that's not good.

Anyhow, I just posted a thread about someone I hung out with last night, but it got erased... shit. I'll post it later maybe, I'm too fucking tired to do it right now.

The weather has been agreeable, though I must mention that I wasn't quite prepared for the rain. I've made plans to hang out with a new girl, though who knows what will go on there. My luck with the ladies is pretty much fucked and I'm weary of women as of late (read my blog and I'm sure you'll find out why) Work is okay... though my hours have cut back at Starbucks (now that my training has ended) I have picked up some hours at the GAP, but that job is one of the most thankless jobs I've had. When I say that, I don't mean that the management is bad (though they sure like to ride a brother) but nothing gets done that doesn't have to be done later... fucking retail. Rae comes back this week; I'll give here a call later in the week. I may do something with Candice later in the week... or not. Who knows, who cares.

5 hours of work, and I feel nonetheless as I did when I got up in the morning. I did however feel rushed from going from job to job and back to job. I've done this several time, with so marginal effort to be on time. I have yet to be late... just once. That was due to me not reading the schedule correctly at Starbucks. I do this more often than I should, but luckly double check each time, and half the time I am usually wrong. I'm feeling better today than I was yesterday. Now I must rest.

Wow, today was really more depressing than usual. For the most part, I spent the day by myself running around doing shit I needed to get done, number one buying a new day planner... which I so dreadfully needed. Also, I picked up the Mr. Show book, What Happened?!. It's okay, but I wouldn't pick it up unless you're a fan. As I was saying however, I was really feeling lonely however, so I was almost looking forward to work today. They had me work outside in a "coffee tent" for an event that was downtown for four hours... BY MYSELF!!! This just made me more mental. I also came to the realization that I'm somewhat disjointed from my co-workers. I fear that I becoming more introverted as time goes on. It's somewhat frightening. I'll have to be more "outgoing" I suppose.

Thanks to Claire not waiting for me to check my schedule for Starbucks, so now I have to stress about covering shifts at the fucking GAP. Though what's pretty fucking awesome is, "Spin This Cabbage" as a four and a half star average user rating from Alexa. I find that kind of cool. But than again, it might very well be for blog spot and not so much "Spin This Cabbage"... seeing as it also notes that I'm linked to 702 sites... Hardly the case, seeing that I've only told a handful of people and been here since June... or May. Though if you click here, it just looks cool. That and I'm a bigger dork than you think. As I said, it's shaping up to be a long weekend.

In Portland, there is an event known as "First Thursday" in which people who have loads of money or rich parents show off their pretencious art... just kidding (mostly) Anyhow, this was the first "First Thursday" I've been to in over six months, but I'm going to try to change it so that I can go to more of them. Anyhow, I have to get up early so I won't be able to post much here. I did have one disappointing moment today, and now I'm sulking, but just a little.


"Get...off my land, come hold my hand and be my friend...get... off my land"

For those of you who don't know what in the hell that was above, that was Bob Odenkirk from HBO's Mr. Show. Which is no longer on HBO, but seasons 1&2 and season 3 are on DVD. Okay, my computer is acting up. Anyhow, I'm working on new frames for my paintings... I'll update you later

I feel much better about myself, seeing that I am back to being comfortable on my own again. I realized that I was fairly content when I went shopping for various items to give myself a two week long cleanse. Yesterday, my spirits were a bit down, seeing that I feel as if my job(s) both seem to not be so into me at the moment, though I've been know to be paranoid about such things. So after some shopping at Safeway and The Dollar Tree (measuring spoons) I felt a little better and than I retreated back to home, too fucking hot. Today, I suppose I'll relax and have a coffee somewhere. I won't be eating for awhile as I am giving my body a much needed cleanse. I'm in piss-poor shape and my energy has been really off lately. I got this cleanser recipe from Staying Healthy with the Seasons by Dr. Elson Haas. This is a great book which can give you types of food that you can eat through out the five seasons (including late summer) Anyhow, I need to get back on track with everything again... I'm not right now.

Today is going to be hot! 96 degrees hot. This will keep me indoors for most of the day. Indian Summers can be killers, and it doesn't look as if this heat will let up anytime soon. I have nothing interseting to say other aside from the fat that I do want a girlfriend, not dating, but an actual girlfriend. This is due to the fact that I enjoy the company of women, but I'd like to be exclusive. I'm not quite sure how I'd go about this, seeing that there is that "no women who are around who would bee in to me in that way" thing. I am dark at the moment... get back later.

Well my dear friends, here I am on the computer wondering what I'll be doing next. I'm still trying to catch up with bills at this point, so I'm not free to set my other plans in motion. I will admit that I feel empty as ever. I think I lost something this past December when things didn't work out with Melissa... I was pretty bitter about our little dating situation and it has effected how I am to this day. I work today, which yesterday I had a shit day at Starbucks... kept fucking up all over the place. Hopefully it will be not as stupid today.