Spin This Cabbage Vol I.

Well, I just don't know. I've had more mixed signals this week alone than for most of the year. This whole interaction with the opposite sex thing is overrated man... or woman depending on who's reading. I ran into a friend of mine who I hadn't seen in awhile at a bar and she told me to stop by and say hi at the bar she works at and than we would catch a game of pool. So of course when I do, I get the coldest shoulder I've had in sometime. "Yeah, after work I have SO many errands to do afterwards..." Not that I'm totally bent out of shape, but still. It's not like she could have been honest and just tell me to fuck off. Another girl I was into, gave me a semi-cold shoulder awhile back, so I decided to just leave it alone, though as it happens, she works with someone who I used as a reference. So when I stopped in to see him, she was there. She was working the register and still had a somewhat stand-offish attitude with me. I ordered my drink and paid no mind as I approched David to thank him. When she relealized that I wasn't there to talk with her, she then started to talk with me. I was nice enough, though when I left I said goodbye to only David, with her quietly saying goodbye to me as I left. What really is sad about that situation is, I really liked her at one time. But I felt as if she was uncomfortable around me (you can usually tell when someone is) this sets off a horrible chain-reaction seeing as I get along and genuinely like her co-workers, I thought best to not talk about it and leave well enough alone. Believe me, I've tried to talk to her in the past about shit, though she has such a problem with confortation I just said fuck it! Oh, that's not everything... another girl, who I had a "thing" with earlier this year, has been blowing me off big time. I don't know about you all... but one night stands aren't all that! Now my friend isn't E-mailing back either... I hope to hear from her soon. Though on the plus side, I finally heard from my friend Kathy (I know her from the late great SBMB fourm) She had been MIA for awhile, than from out of the blue, she contacts me... so that's good. I drank WAY too much coffee, tea, water today. You know, if I smoked pot I'd have no problem passing the drug screening. Okay, I gots shit to do ya'll... PEACE!!!

Okay, now that I'm done promoting the shit I like, I may as well point out the fact that I still have three jobs... all thinking that I'm still available for all hours. I know for sure that I'm sticking with Starbucks. benefits start at 20 hours a week, and you can always pick up extra shifts at any Strabucks, there are at least 100 in metro Portland. I was hoping to work at the GAP (awesome discount)... I'll see what they have to say about that.

Looks as if OutKast are finally going to release their double album Speakerboxxx/The Love Below. It's been a good three or so years since Stankonia. As I understand, it's going to be a sort of solo release... the only comparison I can think of at the moment is Pink Floyd's Ummagumma. They did something similar. Anyhow, I'm looking forward to it.

Hmmm, The new Puffy album came out recently;



It's called Nice. Here they are known as PuffyAmiYumi because Puff Daddy sued them... then he changed his name to P-Diddy... go figure. In Japan they are the shit. I have two of their CD's Spike and Illustrated History. Both fine releases. I suppose you should be a fan of J-pop. I really like the sound of this new album though. I may wait to get this when it's released stateside... right now it only available as an import. You may hear their theme to Teen Titans on Cartoon Network; it's also on Nice. Nice is available in the U.S. on August 12. Here is a link to their website. Cute if nothing else.

Well, at this moment I have three jobs. One at the GAP, Pizza Smitzza (can I never spell that), and now Starbucks. I should go out and not be lazy... though it's going to be up to 98 degrees

So, last night I went to Michelle's which was low-key but fun, the only sore spot was when her ex-girlfriend Nicole showed up... though luckly that didn't last too long. I have this as a link, but all ya'll should check out retroCRUSH. This is an awesome site from out of Sacramento. If any one is from Nor Cal, check this site for going-ons in the valley. Also, another site of note is Something Awful. Be sure to check out Cliff Yabonski... I think you spell it that way? Though I think the site is down for the moment. I did add in my link section BOBANDDAVID.COM: America's #1 Shopping Chat Site This is basically a Mr. Show fansite. Man, am I ever in a lazy mood... though I should go for a run maybe... okay I will.

For not having any money, I spent a lot last night; though I'd say it was worth it. I ran into Lila last night. She is someone I've known for a few years and have always been fond of. I got pretty drunk last night so when I got home I drank about a gallon of water... had to get up a few times to use the bathroom, but I woke less hungover than I probably would have. It looks as if my peeps from Borders are getting together for a BBQ and maybe kick-ball. I'll probably go, those people are the only people worth a shit at that place. I am so happy to not be at Borders anymore, it's almost unreal. I'm watching Gangs Of New York right now though I should be leaving soon for work.

So, now I have two jobs! Though I don't think I'll be able to keep one without alienating the other...crazy shit. I am waiting for Starbucks to call back. At the pizza joint I get free pizza, though at the GAP, I get an awesomw discount, an 25 cents more. I really hope I can work at the two.

There is one regret I have, and that is not persuing a long distant relationship with Rachel Girshick. She was one of the best things to happen to me... an I let it go. I'm pining away for her at the moment. Could it be that I'm lonely? Maybe. Most assuredly. Today I start my new job. In two hours or so. I have tons of new stuff up and coming on the Hit & Run fourm soon. Keep a look out for them.

So yesterday, finally having a moment to relax, I watched quite a few movies I haven't seen in awhile. Fight Club, Trois Couleurs Box Set... all three films, Cowboy Bebop disc one (5 episodes) and Adaption. I was busy doing other things, but I was able to watch most of them. I had time to update my blog to add another link in "Other Folks", Tammy The Receptionist. I know her as Sarah, but this is her blog and it's titled as such. It's quite amusing. I had the biggest problem trying to update the friggin' blog, just because I forgot to use quote marks (") in a command... it's still a little screwy. I was able to work out this morning for an hour, which is always good. I have that interview three or so hours, than I need to study for classes tonight. Don't forget to read the first part of It's Only Art, as well as The Cabbage which is in 13 parts on theHit & Run fourm. Check it out!

Today is a day of better news. I got a call back from the GAP and still have that second interview with Starbucks tomorrow. I also have the first part of It's Only Art up on the Hit & Run fourm. At least I can breathe a little easier now that I have at least one job.

One week and a day, and I found a job. It's for a pizza pub, so I kind of excited about it. I start on Friday, which is pretty awesome. I'll make tips there so now I'll have some money that day... maybe. I do have to get trained. I really should thank my friend Bill from The Rock Bottom, as he was the one who helped me to get the job. Anyhow, I've only eaten twice in the past 48 or so hours, so I'm going to do that as soon as I'm done here. School looks okay as well this term. Okay, I'm out for now.

Okay... I'm starting to panic. I'm not use to not be working for so long. Seriously, I like to work and me not working is really starting to effect me. I must admit that I'm eating less... much less. That's fine for now, but pretty soon I'll have to worry about rent and other bills. Unemployment may take as long as three to four weeks. I'll be the first to say that I would much rather work, but living in Portland, OR. jobs are not easy to come by. I did run into a girl I had a "thing" with a while back. We did exchange numbers but, who knows. I'm not going to worry much about that right now. I need to work, I'm starting to go crazy with all of this free time.

I got around to update my "friends" list (Other Folks). I added on blogs by people who I run into online or by certain fourms. Right now I'm waiting to make a phone call... I have to wait until eight, which is fifthteen minutes from now. Today I'm going to work out and than catch up on studying... I'll check on a few places for work, but otherwise I really should buckle down and study. Here are a few DVD's I'll pick up when I have some study income again. Fear Of A Black Hat is one of the best Parody films I've seen (i.e. Spinal Tap, Waiting For Guffman, Drop Dead Georgous) It's about the year in the life of the rap group N.W.H. (Niggaz Wit Hatz) go rent it. The Ben Stiller Show, this next to Mr. Show, this was the best sketch comedy show on television. Speaking of Mr. Show, Bob Odenkirk, who use to be in The Ben Stiller Show and David Cross were part of the best sketch comedy show that to me has yet to be rivaled. Finally, Season Three comes out of DVD in late August.

Well, I had that interview with the GAP, which happend to be a "group" interview. I am fairly confident, but still... it was a little discouraging, only because I thought I'd deal with someone myself. Luckly for me, only a few people there seem to be commited working any damn time the GAP wants them too. It occured to me that I won't be talking to some of my lady friends from work... customers not co-workers, though I'll miss them too. So anyhow, I have a few more interviews this week, so maybe I'll hear something better.

Oh, the title is named after my favorite coffee. Stumptown Coffee Roasters roast a really great Sumatra Mendehling as well as a Samatra Goya Mountain blend. Sumatra coffee is usually a dark roast, I tend to describe it as "muddy", which in this case is a good thing. the Sumatra Goya Mountain is a Fair Trade Coffee. Fair Trade Coffe is is coffee bought from growers who get "fair" wages, as opposed to those who get screwed. The reason for this post is just simply to point out that I like coffee alot. I'll always have at least that.

Jesus, I just can't get any sleep. I have nothing interesting to say aside from that. If I get up early enough I'll go out for an extended bike ride. I'll add more to this later.

It looks as if my luck has finally turned, I have four interviews set up for next week, and I actually like the bike I have now better than the one that was stolen. I forgot to mention, that I cut a vital artery today, but fixed it myself... I'll explain that one later. I put in eight applications and two of them I set up for interviews. I am going to call on two more, so that may make six. Not a bad feat for city with the worst economy in the nation. I still have twenty more applications to fill out from today, so I'll do that tonight...maybe.

Well, as I had said... I picked up another bicycle. I can't let it get me down. I've spent about five hours a day looking for work, with minor leads. The most promising one fell through today, so there's that. Portland is the worst place to be without a job. I'll get it together... I always do. I updated the American Empirical Etc. portion of my fourm. I hope I have something good to report to you soon... we'll see.

On Monday, I didn't get my laptop; on Tuesday, I got fired and Yesterday, my bike got stolen. So, I had to buy another bike last night... luckly the guy was super cool and sold it to me for $100. However, it was in pretty bad shape, so I spent another 80 or so dollars to fix it up, so at least now it runs like a fucking champ! However, I'm near broke now, and have to find a way to make money quickly! I really did need a bike to get around to look for work. Earlier I did run into an old friend of mine, Ami. I hadn't seen her in awhile, so I had coffee and rapped with her for a good hour or so. Okay, I got to split - PEACE

I'm just seeing if this works. I'll know the same time you all do.

Until I speak with someone at Starbucks... it's a job. I have applications out and about, so I'm not too worried. Here are some things I found pretty cool. Chuck Palahniuk, the author of Fight Club and that piece of shit Choke, came out with a new book: Fugitives and Refugees: A Walk In Portland, Oregon. Chuck Palahniuk has lived in Portland, OR for over twenty years or so and is actaully a nice and very accomidating guy. He'll come in to book stores all over town and sign books at any ramdom moment. I met him twice and he was a gentleman each time. I liked all of the books he's read except Choke, So, if any of you were at all curious of Portland, pick this book up. It's 20% off at Barnes & Noble or better yet, shop and support your local book store

Yesterday wasn't so bad. I dropped off tons of applications for Starbucks. There are 27 stores downtown alone, in this neighborhood, there are 5 that aren't more then a two mile radius apart. So, I'm hopeful. As a matter of fact, someone called me yesterday from a store downtown. I'll check on it later this morning. I would almost say that yesterday was a good day. While applying at various Starbucks, I ran into one of my old co-workers Chesney. I was really glad to see her. She use to work in the cafe with me at Borders, but she had to quit, because Border's no longer allows people to take a "leave an absence." It had been about two months before she found a job. I missed working with her as well as Michelle and Hillary, I'll explain all of those people with detail later. I did by an awesome T-shirt at Value Village for only .99 Cents. I also found a copy of Elton John's Goodbye Yellow Brick Road for only six dollars! At fucking Border's, it sold for $18.99. Oh, I'll be posting more crap on my Hit & Run fourm. So far, I'm slowly "old schooling" the exsisting members...by titling as such. I do have to leave here soon, but other than that... Things are going fairly well... for now. One more thing, I finally heard from my friend Julie B. ( the other Julie was known as Julie M. as to not confuse all ya'll) Anyhow, she may come out to visit which would be pretty cool. I do miss her. We were pretty good friends.

So, I got fired. Anyhow, I'm looking for work now. I got fired for having my third bad secret shop. That's when a customer comes in and checks out how you do with sales transactions. In all three I did fine, but I didn't recommed an extra item like a cookie or some shit like that. That was yesterday, which as a result I'll no longer get that laptop. I ended up hanging out with my friend Scott last night and drank a lot of PBR This isn't as bad as all that though. I do have a few leads, and I've worked long enough there (almost three years) to collect unenployment. We'll see... I better go work out.

...Or where ever you live. I'm on my way to work out right now, seeing I ate like a bastard yesterday. I still didn't get my laptop yet, but I'll get to that later. Right now I'm running somewhat late - Get back with you all. Feel free to E-mail me at neuroticalyyours@yahoo.com , the comcast address in no more! - LATE!!!

My left leg is killing me. I'm just not use to working out as much as I have been. It was a real bitch to ride my bike this morning. I'm going to have to massage my leg for a good hour or so with a hotpad. Anyhow, I'm waiting for the delivery of my laptop which is a little exciting, it's been awhile since I've been excited about anything. So for now... I'm still online at home. I just ate so I'm going to maybe get some riding in. Right now I'm watching Bean: The Whole Bean it is collection of every Bean episode, including missing sketches and a documentry on the show. Me likes it! I figure I'll go for another bike ride when the laptop shows up. In the meantime, I should nurse my left thigh for awhile... oh well. Hey! The Family Guy is on... I like that show.

Why I forgot to bring this up, is beyond me... but Barry White died a couple Fridays back. I am still bummed out about it. I've been playing my Barry White The Ultimate Collection CD non-stop at work last week. Today, I worked out and picked up that Style Wars DVD I had talked about. I didn't do too much other than that though.

I just finish posting a bunch of crap, but it didn't keep... FUCK ME!!! well, here are a couple of the websites I had brought up, but had been erased >:(

Cars-R-Coffins Bicycle - Punk Rock - Action
Zoobomb A Bunch of crazy bastards on bicycles riding down a hill 900 feet down at 30 miles plus and in kooky costumes no less
Straw Dogs The Sam Peckinpah classic, now out on Criterion! The name that says quality. This film is pretty dark, so be warned.

Okay... I'd explain more, but basically, I'd repeat all of the same shit over and over. I will mention, that I will be getting a new computer (IBM Notebook Laptop) So, what this means is, with compy payments and gym fees I won't be able to afford ISP service. I will have time to work on The Cabbage, plus much easier to type out stuff... I can go to coffee shops to do my shit yo. I will keep up on this board at school, if and when I have time, though I will take sometime away from the message boards. Unless the SBMB 3.0 is up and running, but than that would be temporary as well. Okay... I'm out for now kiddo's - PEACE

Well, I sadly sent my last E-mail to Julie...not that she'll take it badly. After all, it was her who ended things with me last year. I just ended the friendship part of it...which hurt her more than I thought. Anyhow, I thought I may have a chance to at least be friends again. She wouldn't commit to it, and to be honest... I didn't want to presure her into being my friend. I think this it and now were over for good. It really sucks, but it has to be that way.

So...things are going just fine. I have no real reason to complain at the moment. Laura came in yesterday to say hi. I enjoy talking to her, but so much so I forgot to ask her if she wanted to get together to do anything...damn! I haven't time to write much, but I do have tons of ideas. I'm need to make frames for some of the paintings I've done recently. I suppose that's all I have to say at the moment.

Well, I've been work on re-organizing my life. I spoke with my lawyer and looks as if I'm going in the right direction. Also, I've been talking with a new girl lately. Her name is Laura, and she happens to be a prominment local artist. I didn't know thins until she told me a few months back. My roommate/co-worker is fucking shit up badly and just about compromised me at home and work. He basically stole from work right in front of me and blamed shit on me at home for shit I didn't do. Anyhow, it will work out, I'll fix it right. I'm excited about this weekend, because it's 40% off day at work and I'm going to pick up two awesome DVD's. Style Wars, which is about early 80's hip-hop, and the Sam Peckinpah classic, Straw Dogs. Okay, I must be going now...Too much shit to do today.

Well, after a series of false starts, I think I'm slowly back on my feet. I went for a twenty mile bike ride this morning and now here I am watching My Neighbor Totoro It's a cute little anime by Hayao Miyazaki. Though what I really need to call my lawyer and visit the gym later. I haven't wrote a thing and pretty much gave up on Julie. I did E-mail her if she'd like to get some coffee, but got no reply. I'll try later in the week, though it doesn't look promising. I would love to just forget about her completely, but I just can't.

I must admit that my confidence is at an all time low. I've suffered more set backs to my ego lately than usual. I guess that's what I get for being overly optimistic.

Well, it looks as if Julie is giving me the old balckout treatment again. I must admit that this bums me out somewhat. School is over and I was lackluster at best. I may open up my fourm soon, but not soon enough I guess. It's called Hit & Run Feel free to check it, and leave a post if you like... I need to fix it up some. Tonight I'll be hanging out with some peeps tonight, which I feel not all that up to it.

YIKES!!! Yesterday, I had about six cups of coffee and made up ten missing assignments! So, it appears that I'm not so much stupid as I am just very lazy. I find that drinking all of that coffee and listening to Aphex Twin's I Care Because You Do which I forgot how great this album is. I can't believe today is July 1st. Tomorrow will make five years that I've been in Portland. Also yesterday, Heather got back into town. I don't think I brought her up yet, but I have a HUGE crush on Heather. Nothing for Julie...even E-mail. I'm not going to put too much into women as I would like to work on creative shit... school is out for a few weeks.